I love the way you intertwine your fingers in mine. The way each gap of my fingers is filled with yours as if the entire world belongs to me at the single moment. The way you hold my hand feels like I'm the happiest girl ever. As if nothing can ever come between us as long as your hand and mine are interlinked with each other. I hope this moment will last. I hope our story will not end. As long as you're holding my hand and I'm holding yours, I'll be yours and you'll be mine.
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Since the day I have met him, I was wondering how long we will lasts. For how many break ups we had, I thought it would be our last time to be together. Since September 2011, the month where we are officially together. We have faced a lot of trials and challenges that even me, Im falling down and wanted to give up. What hurt is that, we have no freedom in our relationship. I tried to keep it as a secret for as I know my parents wouldnt allow me to have a boyfriend. But because I really fall for him, I fight for him. I fight for our relationship. We tried to go on. Though its like the world is against us. But it didnt hindered us to keep our relationship going. I have been caught twice and I got scolded by my mom. I see tears flowing in my mother's eyes while she keep telling be the things I've done wrong. She keep giving me advice and she encourage me to wake up. She said its not the right time to me to have one. As she see me as a-not-matured-teenager. Yes. I know I've made mistakes. I've done things that not supposed to be doing. I've been doing things that is not right. But tell me? How can I stop myself from falling? I may be young but I assure myself that my love for him is true. I have been in a relationship with him for 1 year and 3 months. I do really love him. I dont want to see him suffering as he knew my family doesnt like him. I am torn between two. To let go? or to Hold on? If I let him go, he wouldnt be suffer anymore from the things he hear from my side. But if we keep this going, we will be test by the challenge. But guyz you know, we never give up. I've learned that maybe not all things should come from the heart, it should be also together with our mind. But how can you supposed do the things your mind tells you but your heart stops you from doing it. I always say but my actions betrayed me. Now our relationship still going even though they think we are not together anymore. I just wanted to prove that, no matter what risk are we going to take, this love will keep on fighting.
For how many months have passed, im back for making this blog alive again. Thanks for the people out there who left their comments and visited this site.
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